I wish you could stop your desperate attempts of trying to keep me your little girl forever. I know you see yourself in me when I leave this house and when I come home the way I do. I know you see yourself in me when i’m stressed or feeling hopeless or when I don’t give two fucks about anything. I…
Wrote this about a year ago, and the feelings came rushing back. I love my Dad so much.
As this semester comes to a close and I prepare my plans for the next this summer, it’s hard not to wonder if this was all worth losing you for. Deep down, as much as I try to push these thoughts away, I know this will never be worth it. Nothing could ever justify the most regretted decision I’ve ever made.
If I could go back in time I would. I would keep you and care for you. The pain I’ve endured would of taught me how to guide you in this world. I know The constant struggle to come to terms with the pain I’ve had to endure over the years would of been over if I still had you. I know now, you would of been my strength to move on and guide you in this world. Yet instead, I thought I was protecting you.
But it’s too late now. I love you, always, even if I’ve never met you.
